So, I have just learned to resonate with the fact that I have changed so much since losing my daughter and the me that existed when she was here died along with her. I am a new person, a person who has tried to be better in all areas of life, embracing things like friendship and learning to lean on people after a life that was mostly spent as a loaner. If you are still here with me, thank you friends...you can't possibly know how much your friendship means to me. This year ha

The world keeps going and somehow I do too. I don't feel like the world around me is real some days. Some days I wake up and long to run...

Sweet Adeline, some days it feels like just yesterday that you held my cheeks between your tiny hands and gave me that last kiss the...

Well sweet Adeline, it happened, your birthday came and went and you should be here...now a teenager, but instead you are forever 9. It...

Dear Sweet Adeline, I hope you know how hard I am trying, even though I feel like I am failing in so many ways. I feel so broken and so...

I guess I knew that I would be broken after losing Adeline. From the moment they looked at me with tears in their eyes and said I'm...

Today the song Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds has been on repeat in my head. I am feeling so connected and grounded lately which is not...

The new year used to signify new beginnings, things I wanted to change and ways that I felt that I could be a better version of me. I...

Three years....how has it been three years since I last heard you tell me you loved me and that you were the luckiest little girl in the...

I am realizing that the holidays will forever be a perpetual struggle for me. I am so sad right now and I just can't shake the feeling...

As I sit here tonight on the eve of what should be a celebration of your 12th birthday, I feel heartbroken and anxious and full of a...

The past few weeks have been busy. Until last night, Shane and I had not slept in the same location in a week. It was crazy! The waves of...

I feel like I just have so much to say about grief and life after losing my little love. Not a day goes by where I do not feel such...

Every day since the day that I was told that Adeline was no longer with us has been a storm in some way or another. I will never forget...

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about how I am a grieving mother. Forever, for the rest of my life, I will always have I am a grieving...

I am struggling with things lately. I feel like I should be doing more on here and I have so much to update and share with the world, but...

Adeline was love. The thing that I hear the most when I talk to those who knew her is how much they loved her, how loved they felt by...

WARNING -- I AM SHARING PICTURES OF THE FIRE DAMAGE TO OUR HOME. PLEASE TAKE CONSIDERATION WHEN READING THIS POST! I would suggest when...

With each ending of the school year, so many emotions play out. I am so thankful for the healthy three children that I have. I don't ever...

Lately, I have been thinking about how proud of her family Adeline was. Adeline always wanted to be our family cheerleader and she...